OH MON DIEU! ♥

Before people around me do not usually say what are the things on their mind, maybe because they are afraid. I myself was afraid before because for me, saying it out comes with a judgment. However, as time passed by, we learn how to overcome this fear and try to be mature enough to let other people what is really within us. It is really a good feeling to let other people know the real thing within you.

I am so happy to see that some of my friends are more expressive now when it comes to their real feelings. Some of them now know what to say and yeah, when to say it. Even it would be like a slap in a face; at least, we try to say it to each other, which we knew that, will make us a better person. (Though it would be like a slap, we are mature enough to take is a good comment. In addition, no things/words would be a slapped enough when it comes to friendship.) Some of them tell that they miss and love me, which I absolutely appreciate. Nothing in this world would be a greater feeling than being value, cherish, and love. The others who are not that expressive yet will eventually were going to learn it. It could by themselves or with a little help and push by the people around them. :-) 

Cunning the memory before it suffers me.

Analyzing the reality before it distresses me.

Tearing the letter before it terrifies me.

Depriving the melody before it suffers me.

Closing the book before it burns me.

Removing the belief before it smothers me.

Cutting the cord before it suffocates me.

Facing the labyrinth before it troubles me.

Judging the gabble before it kills me.

Now change the word before to because and discover the real meaning.

When I was at that age, I was thinking about how will be my future. Not to the point, I am thinking for a man. It was the year that I am graduating for high school. There is of course an excitement but with that is the fear of what might happen to the future. I love my high school friends and I do not know how I will be in college without them. I was too dependent to them because they had been my big brothers and sisters. There is a fear of meeting and knowing people and the expectations that comes with it.

I was thinking what course I would take up and where school I am qualified. I was thinking if my parents would allow me to study at Manila or just let me here in Bulacan. I was thinking if the course I want is what my parents would want to. I was thinking if the course I will be taking suits my personality. Lastly, I was thinking if taking up that course would help me to be successful.

Maybe the wildest thing I ever think is will I be able to give my parents a great future. Will I be able to give them the kind of life that they had given me? Will I be able to give them the good life that they so much deserve?

However, there are times that I think and talk about love, but it was not extreme. Love that time was a good feeling. It was a sense of appreciation, admiration and attraction. That time.

It is not that I am talking like an old lady here huh. I am just giving my opinion that young ladies should not prioritize finding the ideal man. They, we, are so young. There are many things we can do, we need to do, and I would love to think it is our education. I am not saying that all we need to do is to study. We should study and at the same time, we should enjoy. Have fun, fun, and fun but do not forget that we need to learn.

Oh gosh, this thing is not going anywhere. This does not make sense anymore. I need to stop.

P.S. It is okay to be futuristic, just know your limitations. ;-)

Dammit.